After several of frustration i have while gaming session, i decided to just uninstall everything in my mind
and probably only find game that I truly wanted to play, instead of these "completionist mindset"
In meantime, have fun reading my inner thoughts:
1. Monster Hunter Wilds Benchmark
Definitely the downfall of modern AAA. Everything need framegen and upscaling just to get performace from the get go. No optimization done properly and the visual arent considered high fidelity either. I was hyped about this game so much, but now i will just wait until a modder come out with optimization patch or something. I dont mind playing on minimum settings, since i have 8 years old GPU but the stuff shown in benchmark is just lackluster. Dragon's Dogma 2 which already released for 1 year, still have performance issue with its engine unable to handle open world game.
2. Xcom 2 War of the Chosen expansion + Long War mod (LWOTC)
One of best recent game experience where it is kinda turned super soldier xcom team, to big guerilla warfare tactics vs alien. Instead of going in / out of 1 mission per game, you now can send multiples squad to multiples missions where you need to balance between going stealthily (max infiltration) or bang out of the door (sometimes like 5x more enemies). It was super tricky at start since I also learning the expansion DLC mechanic like the faction you help doing covert operations and fight a specialized alien warrios similar to a miniboss. Each of them are pretty tricky fights, despite i was playing on easiest difficulty with tons of QoL mods. As usual, the game get easier and it just time i get bored in late game since once your tech catch up with enemy, the game become too easy.
3. Civilization 5 + Vox Populi mods
After disappointing runs with several 4X games i played couple of weeks ago like Humanity, Old World, Civilization 6 and Endless Legend, I finally decided to reinstall Civ5 with the most popular mods and tons other content mods that will make game felt new. Long story short, I liked the learning phase at beginning where everyting is new and then I learnt that huge emphasized on having big army for survival / war deterrent against AI civilization. But my breaking point was my last game, where I played a civilization that focused on allied city states (neutral city) and focusing on building up like world wonder, science & culture. In one time, i decided to attack one of the settler of my friend because they was planning to settle to closely to my city. I ended become world most hated civilization for some reasons and I spent like last 100 turns (66% of my 150 turns games) just managing about 30 army to defense my borders. Turned out this is a problem with its AI diplomacy logic that not everyone liked, and i just felt tedious because it is not fun to play war 1 vs 5 for whole game that made me uninstall all games i have on my pc atm (except genshin & Pokemon pocket TCG emulator)
4. Sifu
The game that is you need to gitgud to enjoy. After first death at 2nd stage, i just dediced Im not in mood even to practicing this tricky game until i win the game. I was told that difficulty doesnt matter much, where easier difficulty only made AI less aggressive and you get less penalty for dying too much. Good skill based games, but not something I needed atm (frustration building up)
5. Guardian of the galaxy
Good narrative game that was boring because enemy are too bullet spongy, and gameplay is snoozefest spamming shoot and companions skill. People online recommended to switch to easiest difficulty and make gameplay faster, but then i realized even the story is dragging way too long for my taste. Lets just it become arena - cutscene - arena - cutscene formula that I dread so much.
Several honorable mentions :
Against the storm - I thought i would like for roguelike + old school RTS, but i barely clear the tutorial and never in mood to play again
Moonstone Island - Snoozefest that combined stardew valley + pokemon + card battler. Starting up is so slow that i just felt boring
Citizen Sleeper - Too many reading, passssss. I thought it will be game like Tharsis (decent survival diceboard-gamelike)
[Redacted] - Good hades clone that decent, but awful in many QoL aspect. Like why you need to lift your finger from trigger to continue firing weapon after dodging? Oh, there is no rebindable controller in FREAKING 2025
No Straight Roads - Good game made by my local people. Not perfect definitely, but i compared it like watching movie. Short & stylized.
The Last Campfire - Short game by company which made No Man's Sky. Just ok, i used speed hack and ended it quickly
Thief Simulator - I will avoid simulator type game in the future
Touhou Makuka Sai - Something about its graphic is too blurry, supposed to less graphic intensive than 2nd game, but still painful to my eyes
Uninstalled everything and I just meditating on what I wanted to do next
I might get back to watching anime if this persist, at least that will be enjoyable